THINGS HAVE HAPPENED……..

After getting the laptop home, what I have been doing is that I have been typing my blogs at home and posting them in the office……..That actually gives me some peace and time to reflect on things………….Its true that a lot of things have actually since the last few days……..Got through the IRMA written test………..That actually came as a pleasant surprise on the Christmas day………..Was actually happy for some days…………and then disappointment followed for quite a long time………Rejects, rejects and rejects again………..JMET results came as a rude shock actually………….I could never have thought that I would actually land up in the Did Not Qualify bracket although Iwas expecting some rank towards 800-900………..I definitely would not have qualified one section or the other……………..XAT got screwed up……………I was really not expecting much from it………..After that came the CAT results where I again fell short………I was optimistically expecting an increase of around 10 marks but that remained a dream unfulfilled………..Thankfully though my marks actually didn’t decrease from that predicted by TIME and I ended up getting a 96.74 percentile……….Could have definitely been better………..Then came SNAP and another rude shock when I came to know that my score was 71.5 although I was expecting somewhere in the range of 77.75-81.25……….Anyways that was the day I really felt dejected………But gradually the misfortune of all the others came into light and that brought in a sliver of hope………..Then came SPJIMR first shortlist………..Dinged again……….Dejected again………….Finally just the day before yesterday, SCMHRD came as a pleasant surprise bringing some much needed phase of relief after IRMA………….The best I can expect in such a scenario would definitely be MDI PGP HR and IMT, Ghaziabad…………..And oh yes, before I forget, XAT results came out on the day before my SCMHRD call……………scored 90.38 percentile…………Again on the border line for an XIMB call under Orissa domicile relaxation…………..man this sucks…………….on the borderline for ever f**king exam I have written till now………………God save me………..SIBM, Pune will come out with its list on 24th Jan 09……………I am not expecting much from it seriously…………Then in line are IMI, IMT, XIMB, NMIMS, TAPMI, MDI, SPJIMR (second list) and a long line of such shit………….Will get some calls, won’t get some calls………………LIFE GOES ON AND WILL GO ON……………..

WORRY LINES…..

Since the last some days, I have been worried a lot….Life isn’t going all that smooth….The apprehensions about the results have increased day by day….I just hope that everything finally turns out to be well….There has been a serious lack of proper whole-hearted enjoyment from my life nowadays…….There has been no peace in the things I do whatsoever…….Sometimes I just wish that I had a fast forward button for life….. I would have just used this once…….Would have simply fast forwarded my life some 5 months ahead………..Waiting for May 2009 more than anything else……..Just wish that everything finishes well in the end………Rather I would like to wish that I have a good beginning after May 2009………All the scores of the exams that I have appeared till now are in a true hanging position………It can really tip either way and God forbid if it tips in a way that is undesirable for me, I really am screwed……..Somehow I am just too tired of life……..Too bored……..I am typically losing interest in all this struggle etc……….Just want some peace and rest………….May be I am asking too much from life too soon………..God I am really tired………I am sick of being tired……….I am bored of being sick of being tired……………I had read Paulo Coelho’s The Alchemist some years ago………..That was my first brush with MAKTUB……..”It’s All Written”………..That’s what it means………..If it’s all written, why does it actually take so long to show itself????????? Why in the name of the devil does God want me to actually wait so long just to show me what is written for me???????? I want to spend some good time now…….Spend some time being actually happy, devoid of sickly worries…………..I want to go some place very far away right now………I want to spend some real good quality time with my love…………not like these days when I look at the watch more than I look at her…………I just want to spend some hours with her away from the mad crowd…………….I want to fly………..I want to enjoy something, be it a good movie, a good joke, a good computer game, a good book without being worried just like those days when in college…………….I want to read a book for actually enjoying it not because I have to prepare for some bloody GD/PI where they may ask me “Dude what was the last book you have read?????”………….I want to watch a movie with my honey without any trace of a worry line on my forehead………….I do want a lot of things…………..I am tired………..Is peace on sale somewhere nearby???????? Cause I, typically, am in no mood to struggle for peace anymore…………….I just want it the easy way………..Or am I demanding something out of the world????????

FIRST RESULT….DINGED!!!!

IIFT results were out yesterday….Dinged….Didn’t qualify through the written stage….1225 calls were handed out for 180 seats….I think I must have missed out by a whisker….Anyways, whatever hopes I had since some days have been dashed….Now I fear to actually think about the future….Everything looks rather dull….Hopefully something will come my way….Don’t want to type in anymore….Bye and Good Night….